I was taking a stroll down memory lane visiting the words on the pages I scribed eight or so years ago.
Who was this person?
Who was this Him she was talking too?
As the pages turned I felt like I was eavesdropping on a very close and intimate connection.
An outpouring of love expressed with abandon.
A sharing of her deepest concerns about herself.
An inquisitiveness to know this other person…His thoughts, His heart, His life.
Questions, questions and more questions.
The aha moments leapt off the page.
I could hear Him reveal Himself back to her on these pages that only shared one pen, one handwriting. But He was there too.
I began to remember….to remember Him….to remember her.
Could that really be me?
When did I stop inquiring about Him and start inquiring about the world?
When did I start using Him as a receptacle of processing my day rather than a confidante and mentor to understanding the supernatural behind this world.
When Jesus walked as a man in this world…He was God…but He was also…
and a Savior to a fallen world.
It will take more than these words on a page for me to understand what I knew before I knew so much…for me to know it isn’t about what I do or where I worship…it isn’t how much knowledge I have gained through bible study, small groups, or the podcast of the day…
It will take me a bit of time to process that my faith was every bit what Jesus asked for at this sedar meal:
19 And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, “This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.” Luke 22:19
Because true remembrance
….keeps a time, a place, or a person alive today
….maintains the relationship you had in the past and brings it into your future
….remembering makes what once was, what is, and what will be.
Remembering Him is being in relationship with Him today and everyday.
Jesus sacrificed everything for me. Once again, I need to give up this world, I need to die on that cross with Him again, and celebrate His resurrection and redemption of this fallen world.
This fallen girl.
Note: It took me 36 years walking in this world to know Jesus as my personal Savior. This post is focused on me, because I know He would have died even for just me. Just like I know He died just for you. You individually…not just the human race. He wants a relationship with you personally…not just remembering the past…He is still here with you today. As we come upon Good Friday and Easter, I want to remember. I want to remember what He did for me. I hope and pray that you know He died just for you too. Because He loves you!
So, so good.